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ok finally i think i have time to blog about finals and everything else. been rather busy and well.. been collecting my thoughts before actually blogging cos everytime i want to blog i'll go blank cos there's too much to blog about i dunno where to start. everything seemed so fast, so surreal.

anyway 26th may 2005 marks the end of another chapter in my life. vj hockey. it ended there and then when the final whistle blew and well fairytale ending indeed. and well i've enjoyed every single moment i must say aside the scoldings and shit that we got into. but i must say it's something that i hold very dearly and it's really sad that everything's ended.

26th may 2005 - the finals of the national schools a div hockey championships. girls : vjc vs rjc guys : vjc vs rjc.

the day started out pretty gloomy cos the soccer guys lost the finals teh day before and well tehre was alot of pressure on us to win since we've been losing alot of finals and getting second. well i didnt go for any lessons la cos we were dismissed early and i have first 4 periods breaks. it was really like pretty bad actually cos i had a sore throat the day before and then at night i had slight flu and fever and i was praying and i slpet alot for the fever to go away. i mean wat a time to fall sick la. but yeah i was feeling really terrible actually the panadol didnt exactly work. marianne and i went up to the hockey tables and slept there for dunno how long and slacked and then later went down and ate and changed and all. and then i was like trying to get some of the ppl to excite me. hahah. sounds wrong but yeah. but i was alrite la. i didnt wanna let it affect me. so after changing and all that we went up to the pe dept for the usual [ and the last] of team talk. seet gave us this bookmark thingy and he wrote " Fariza, you are our HOPE + top scorer. Stay focussed and Score, Score, Score!!!" [ oh man the pressure. i tell u i felt sooo stressed after reading that] anyway we had our usual talk what to do and what we have to remember. tried to focus and all. we listened to our collection of inspirational songs and prayed together. the excitement i tell you was beyond words!

anyway when down to get ready to board the bus and i bought myself redbull so i wont be so weak. hahah and then we were all hanging around in the canteen when we saw the hockey guys came to the canteen with huge [ and i mean HUGE] stalks of lilies each of them holding one. then each of them gave us a huge stalk of lily and like awwwwwww so sweet! ahhah really really. it was really thoughtful and sweet of them to be so nice and all i mean it's the hockey guys we're talking about here, haha as in VJ HOCKEY GUYS [think sam, fazly, hari etc etc etc ahhha] giving flowers quite surprising you know i mean they're capable of actually being nice and sweet heh jk. but really appreciate it man. so sweet! so we board the bus [ which was like exceptionally small] and off we go to delta to face the rafflesians. so was visualising and praying that i wont collapse and die on the pitch on the way there. so reached delta and we reached first so we started padding up and all and then our darling year 1 newbies had to be sweet [ like overload of sweetness on that day!] they were like we got all of you smth and they each made us this card where all of them wrote encouraging stuff for each of us and a personal tagline in the card and mine says " WE will count the number of balls this time. (in the goal.not the basket (: )" i started laughing the moment i read that cos im always chasing ppl to go pick up the balls after trainings and alot of them said i look fierce. really ah? but anyway so sweet la the year1s and they also gave us each a cookie and it was this heart shape cookie and there were mnms on top and it was in the designed to be our jersey numbers. so sweet rite! awwwwwwww. (:

anyway warmups as usual and then i saw teh crowd started to come in and FUWHOARRRRR [ soccer guys' style] the pressure was on man and was all set to go. so we had to shake hands and stuff and then teh whistle was blown. the weather was alrite. it was good and i tell you i think we really wanted it although i must say it wasnt the best game we've played i think each and every one of us played with our hearts and we chased that dream. not the ball. we chased the dream. first half was slightly off here and there, playing too much in the centre i tried to focus damn hard and lucky made a few good passes tehre was one pass that i was so proud of myself [ hahaha] but that was also cos quick pass from esther to me then swept it acorss to qing and she almost scored a goal. anyway half time ended and we were still at 0-0 but the crowd kept cheering cheering and cheering and i tell you vj supporters were wonderful that day better than last year! anyway we went in during the second half more determined to win it and for me personally i was telling myself that i wanted that goal. so we went in second half and gave it all. and rj was attacking pretty strongly as well but we tried to keep it together. and then that moment; aneesa passed the ball to qing near 25 yard qing had the ball i was somewhere above the penalty spot abit further up qing passed it to me and like i dunno la i just pushed it in like right in the centre and i saw the keeper i was like OH SHIT but it went thru between the keepers' legs and it's a goal. i tell you i jumped like i never jumped before. cos like when i went in for second half i told myself i've got to get thta goal and i did it. and it was like a moment of true happiness i tell you. and it was great to see the rest of the team and the whle crowd of supporters jumping and all as well. and then we defended really hard and played and played and played till the final whistle and there you go.

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!

and the crowd i tell you the crowd was super fab i tellyou. the soccer guys especially ahha i saw them cheering and cheering and cheering throughout the whole of our match and the guys. our guys were up against rjc after that. and despite the loss i am damn bloody proud of each and every one of them. really damn proud. they fought really hard. they played so well in the first half holding rj to a 0-0. but then second half came and although they fought rj had good shots. they lost 2-0. but they're the underdogs of the undedogs. mighty proud of them. and i cant stop saying how much i appreaciate the crowd the cheers were fantastic the drums and all. vj..vj..vjc!

"we are the champions!"
"you are our champions!"

prize presentation photo takings thanking ppl afte that smses heh and then celebration dinner with team and the guys as well with seet. seet's treat! hahah dinner at siam kitchen great world and we were so noisy but the service there was lousy the manager sucked. but anyway great dinner and i think it was like damn alot la. had fun takling and all and the feeling that it'll probably be our last team dinner after game together didnt sink in yet. went home with liyana, izzu, enoch and viknesh and the two year1s enoch and vikensh damn funny. esp enoch who's super lag! hahaha. happyness for that night. (:

next day prize presentation in school was pretty emotional towatrds the last part where there was this video and it was damn sad la it's like all the finals and everything and it like.. i dunno unexplainable. anyway the speeches by sean and flor so funny and yeah.. so sad! ): and the school got released at 950 we had full day haha and so we went to eat breakfast together. then we boguht stuff for the guys! ahah towels and we used fabric paint to write their anmes and a card for them that said " you are our champion" haha so nice right! so met up at marianne's place at 4 plus so shiyun, abby, qing, mari and i did all that in 2 hours! effecient or wat! heh. so nice rite. then we headed over to zonghe's place for the party-bbq thing and they had a freaking satayman to cook the satay for us la. it as fun la. then we watched the guys match also and all and then gave them the towels hahah. headed for the beach and slept over there and came home this morning.

sigh sigh. been great season great year for the team. and for me. i think i've never done so well in a season before am actually proud of myself and for beign able to contribute to the team. champions of a div, the gold medal and total of 11 goals this whole season; scoring in every single game. i cant wish for more. like flor said " far i'm so proud of you. you've improved so much since the first time i saw you" hahah. btu i must agree i think i've improved qt abit. and the team a great one, fantastic even though we had some hurdles here and there but we endured it all. we pulled through it all. all the endless trainings under the scorching sun or the pouring rain - be it in schol or delta or ccab. the long toturous runs to ecp, the sprints and laddder and all that shit, the same old drills again and again and aigain to perfect our skills. the extra traqinings for short corners and flicks. and being the quarter-master and shouiting " GIRLS GO AND PICK BALLS NOW!!!!!!" collecting balls losing balls asking the guys for balls hahah. the dinners that followed after trainings, the laughs, sweat, tears, smiles, scoldings . team talks, movies [ remember the titans and replacemtns] everything. i love you girls. thanks for making team 2005 so wonderful. and it's especially memorable and special as well beacause of all the friendships that have been formed and also the team being closer to the guys team. dinners together, the flowers, hockey tables and getting to know some of them better. thanks guys.

girls; proud of you girls. each and everyone of you. we chased the dream we played with our hearts. we fought hard. deserving. champs. love.\<3

florence; zheqing; wongxi; fariza; esther; liyana; xinyi; marianne; susan; aneesa; pauline; abby; shiyun; joyce; qianru; michele; gine ; joy; huihui; sheeying.

guys: hahah RESPECKKKKKKKKKKKK!

i wanna type smth for each of you but it's too long i'll do that some otehr day. but the happyness and sadness all rolled into one. not a very good feeling. but still - good things come to an end.

shamphoo let go on 23:54