I'll never light your eyes up like they should

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sigh sometimes there are so many things that's happening that life just gets really dreary and tiring. this is madness. i wonder wat will happen to me next year.

and was utterly disgusted by this ite couple on the train. a train packed with ppl at 730pm. and this couple was seating at the two seater seat in the mrt train all over each other or sumthing. and the guy looked as if he was holding on the the girl as if she was gonna run away or sumthing. like the guy has his arms around her and the girl who's not even close to pretty was leaning against him and the guy was like holding her both her wrists as if like she's sum criminal or sumthing adn rubbing each others faces against each other. i mean go do it in some park or toilet la ah. not in a mrt full of ppl and i cant help it that the train was damn packed and i had to stand rite in front of them. my gosh. yucks la. yucks yucks yucks yucks la. wateverrrr. damn irritable mood

and i think im really getting an outbreak cos like i have two new zits popping out on my forehead and the ultra huge one on my cheek dont seem to want to go away. shit la.

wateverrrr. and you know wat. i think i really maybe dont have a place in your heart anymore or sumthing. i dunno there are loads of things that ive been thinking about and i dunno.. seems like you're so far away from me. you dont tell me stuff anymore. i dont seem to be all that important to you. i duno wats going on with you. you dont talk to me like the way you used to. you dont seem to want me to know anything about you anymore. and im just wondering. seems like you dont need me there for you anymore. but sometimes i still feel like i need you to be there for me. cos there were so many instances that we're always there for one another... seems like you've shunned me out of your life. i dunno how things got to this point. i dunno at all. im just really sad. really really sad to think that i try and everything. but everything's not in my way.well its not my will rite. and to think that im down here thinking wat might have gone wrong, thinking what you might be up to, thinking of all the funny times we had together and missing you really badly.

shamphoo let go on 07:52