I'll never light your eyes up like they should

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hmm... you know what? this is like the second time it's happening and the last time i felt this way and realised this was when i was in sec3 the end of the year. it's like maybe i've come to accept that maybe we're just supposed to be friends. or maybe i'm just tired? but it's good because it's like i think we're comfortable at the level we're at now. and it doesnt make me think so much so thats good.but i dont know its kinda weird actually. sometimes. the last time i felt like that was when i liked this guy for aroudn 4 years and then slowly i realise that maybe we're just meant to be friends. although he never knew that i liked him that much. and now ya myabe again we're just meant to be good friends. and i guess im just happy at that. beginning to just accept things this way. it's better? and it's good cos it's comfortable. so that's good. but come to think of it ... hmm... it feels weird. i dunno. but things will be as per normal and like wat happened with david, it'll happen again and i guess i'll just let things happen and like even after 4 years david never found out i guess he wont ever find out either... hahaha. oh well... yeah. am just glad that we're good friends. so it's good. ((((: learning to accept things the way they are and yeah..

today made me realised also that ive made a number of friends whom i never thought i actually will make friends with. like those kind you look at them and it never crossed your mind that you'll be friends. people like clarence and pok and kenneth and alot la.. and its funny that these are the ppl who i hang around with also. yeah. but they're really wonderful ppl. so that's cool. and pok is just so funny la.. damn retarded.

wanted to do pw acutally but we're damn slack so we din. stayed back in school with marianne to wait for qing and wong. so basically we just walked around school sat at the grand stand then went to the outside library and then went to watch the basketballers and netballers train then we watched the soccer guys awhile also cos wong went to see her mud friend. hahah. yeah. dinner with marianne and wong was good. ahhaha we talked about really funny stuff. yeap.

and today was a realtively good day. qing wong marianne and i had many good laughs over stupid things . funny funny . love this ppl to bits la.

shamphoo let go on 07:08