I'll never light your eyes up like they should

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it's quite depressing, i don't know. everyone around me seem to be in some kind of horrible mood and it hurts me escecially when the people are those who mean so much to you. not just one or two but more than that. seems like everyone's going through a rough time and well seriously it sucks. sucks knowing that they're all goign through such horrible times and i cant do anything about it. like how effed up is that. owell. but again,im going through stuff.ohwell.

things are just complicated . i need to work things out how to uncomplicate them. and fariza's been doing too much thinking. need to get things off my mind. sigh. but well i guess im learning alot too from all that's happening. be it to me or to my friends. i just hope that things will turn out okay. *prays*

sometimes i wonder if i am as simple as izzat says i am. cos he says im such a simple girl. but yet things that are happening are so complicated. irony here. just suddenly made me think. i think it's qt true ive become simpler as the years go by. how i dont expect much anymore. how ithe simplest things make me smile and makde me so happy its weird. but im happy that way. u dont really have to do much to make me happy. cos i simply find simple unsignificant things as important, as thoughtful owell. and all this thinking started with that stupid boy asking me wat i would want a guy to do for me if he misses me alot. haha. and all i said was " just by telling her you really missed alot would make her smile". that boy sure misses his girl. :)))

ohwell. on a lighter note, although we didnt go shopping today. mummy and i had some good time together. we had dinner at swenswens at the airport. good spacious place. good steak and good appl crumble! though eating for two there is pretty ex. ahah. and she was nice sh bought my book for me! the shopaholic series the new one!

so thats my only comfort for now. shopaholic & sister by sophie kinsella. planning to get this book called "the chinese cinderella" looks interesting. maybe can gt mum to get it for me again haha. at her workplace. at least got 10% discount.

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