I'll never light your eyes up like they should

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VJC won CJC today. kudos to the team. 7-0. proud of the ppl. shall all paly better on saturday ya.

but i played damn badly and ended up not playing the rest of the game. felt damn shite. was just so angry and frustrated at myself. and was so silly i kinda broke down after the game. so stupid. couldnt hold it back. but congrats to those who scored the goals.! qing, becks, flor and wei who scored hat-trick! yay!. yep. sigh felt utter shite after the game. but nvm wont let tht demoralise me. shall play better on saturday hopefully. must play better.

was good to see some ppl too. cow shanna, weiyan, june, mavis and yeeteng who came and watch the game. and the vj guys too. and tedric and john and kit who came after volleyball. thanks .

sigh think i just like embarrassed myself crying . oh well but thanks to those who tried to cheer me up. thanks becks for the hug, pris and stace for the sms, thanks wongwong for the wonderful smses. heh i love you wong! and qing for listening to me and cheering me up and being there for me. i love you qing loads. thanks to bestie whom i played against. you played well too. i love you bestie. thanks cach for the encouragement.

mostly thanks kit. was glad you could come down. kinda forced you too eh? and thanks for being there and consoling me and i must've looked like an idiot crying like that in front of you. but i was really glad you came down. must've looked so silly crying over such a matter but nonetheless thanks for bringing me back to my senses and encouraging me and telling me to learn from today and all sorts and thanks for letting me cry on ur shirt. and ur smelly red towel. heh. no lah not smelly lah. yeah thanks my vampire fren. i dun want tyou to be vampire. i hope you wont think abt the stuff anymore k. love you loads kit and you know that. thanks again. thanks for always being there for me. :)

yep.yep. feeling much better now. shall not think abt it. now think abt hw. arghhhhh. oh wells . hopefully i can pull thru the econs test tmrw. and well there's lit to do and gp and wat nonsense. yepyep. dd and ss... ughhh

and keith, thanks for ur encouragement earlier on in school when i was feeling rather dazed and worried and wat not. was nice of you to come and talk to me asking if im alrite. thanks keith! :)

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