I'll never light your eyes up like they should

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i dont understand why u see the need to yell at me every single time i come home late. for goodness sake i dont go galavanting at nightl like i have nothign better to do. hockey ended pretty late is that my fault. i went home straight ok . eff. u just made my mood worse. and made me feel even more horrible than i already am feeling. thanks a whole bunch .

i mean fine lah everything is my fault everything is my fault. i come home late is my fault when i already told you and i repeat already told you that i was coming home late cos hockey was gonna end like at 9pm. and the freaking 171 just had to come so effing late. and i reached home late. yah its my fault . and then u say sum bullshit that i dont even know wat the eff you're talkign about. the house is messy ya my fault. its always me who has to do the damn cleaning rite. yah. why dont you ask your irritating teenage son to do rather than leavin it everything to me. i do more shit than he does anyway. and you dont even nag at him as mucha as you bnag at me. wth.

u think jc life is like pri sch and sec sch life where coming home at 6 pm was like the latest ever. maybe you should be a jc student for one day and realise what's it like. not that im complaninig that jc life is boring and all. im enjoying it. but well u dunno what its like and u keep thinking that it's secondary school. wake up mum. im not trying to be rude but i've had enough. fine i know you're probably thinking that it's my fault that i want to go vjc. its my fault i go and pick a school so freaking far away. yah well if it make you feel happier fine let me go yjc then and then i can come home everyday after sschoool at like 3pm rite. yah it all comes down to my own faults and stupid decisions rite.

how do you think i feel? noooooooo i never really tell you how i feel cos why cos i never want to be rude to you. cos i know if im gonna tell you how i really feel and try to make you understand i'll probably explode and the whole world's gonna blow up into pieces . so i dont wanna try and even make you even understand besides i wonder if yuou even wanna try and understand. watever. yah blame everythign on hockey. make me quit hockey. threaten me that you'll make me quit hockey. ya try doing that. yah maybe you want me to be the nerd or sumthign who doesnt have a life. well guess what i have a life ok. try making me quit hockey. u always try to do that anyway. always knew one day you'll say that. you never liked me joining hockey i suppose. you never show it but i know. i never ever effing complain when im tired ok. and at least i do my schoolwork . bob doesnt even do his hw and all he does is slack the whole effing day like sum shit at home and you never ever say anything. and wat im in the wrong im the bad one? helllooooo you donno i come home after training all tired i stay up to complete my work. at least i do my work lah. i never ever give you any freaking problems in school. i always try to do well in school and i did perfectly okay for my Os and the thing that you said " how come got Bs... you got B for amath.. how come higher malay got a2 only" hellloooooooo you think im not hurt. think again lah.

try try taking one of the most important things and one of the things that i love most in my life. i tell you i will never let you. try taking hockey away from me. just try. you've said it so many times. you've threatened to take away hockey away from me so many times. you never succeed. just try again. i hate it when you blame everything on hcokey. i hate it i hate it i hate it. you dun't know how much hockey means to me. you never will. i dont ever think you will.

thanks for making my mood so much better. thanks alot lah.

this is a very angry entry.

shamphoo let go on 07:01