I'll never light your eyes up like they should

20040101

ok i promised i'll make yashira cry today. haha cos i told her i suddenly feel like writing an entry on my blgo abt her since she's one of my closest and favourite ppl in crescent. and anyway today is new year but its such a mundane day that i almost died out of boredom. it was totally boring. and time seemed to pass so slowly i could tear my hair out. yes. so im quite glad its nite time already and tmrw's back to school. and i really think my ogl is a full time slacker. weiting was askign if my ogl called cos apparently his friend's ogl did. but ours no. haha oh well. my father cashed in 150 bucks for my shoes. and im thinking whether i should really get my dunks. *ponders*

anyway yashira i promised to make you cry i will man. and must tell me whether you did. ok here's just for you yashira.

we started off on a bad note didnt we. i remembered those sec1 and 2 times when there's always a sort of barrier between 2g1 and 2g3 during higher malay class. you were the smart one and i guess you gave me the impression of being the ever so great yashira who's smart and everythign you said jsut pissed me off or sumthing. i never talked to you then. and well u didnt talk to me either. it was weird . but come to think about it now ... its even weirder how we're close now and you're like this person who i talk online with almost every single day. ironic aint it?

anyway i guess we're really meant to get to know each other from hating each other. higher malay class was separated and our higher malay class consisted of the asean scholars and you and me. i was the only one from my class and thus no friend i mean i dont talk to the asean scholars that much except for melinda and lanny. so we ended up sititng together. sec 3 we werent that close i guess we talked and joke much yuo were more reserved mayb cos you find it a little bit hard to accept talking to me? ahha no lah you just needed more time in getting to know me whereas i on the other hand just kept being my bubbly self talking to you all the time during those boring hgiher malay classes with cikgu fatimah always nagging about something rite?

seriously you're a totally different person i thought you were. not the irritating, always-have-something-against-me yashira. you're indeed a nice person to talk to. always there to listen to me whine and you're always always making fun of me and mocking me. we grew closer in sec4 and well i really treasure you a whole lot. remember the times we always never do hgher malay hw and never pass up together and we're talk crap in class. rmbr how you always will mock me calling me names even when im not doing anythign to you like... " ya lah ya lah fariza dont want to tuck in shirt lah poser lah poser lah " , or when i tied my hair that time cos i was so freaking hot and wat did u say " ya lah ya lah fariza tie hair act cute lah" hahah... always joking around..

you know me quite well i would say better than i know you maybe but i know your antics , walk on my right... dont touch my file .. yadayada... yashira is a lwa abiding citizen while on the other hand fariza to you is a rebellious deliquent. but hey im not that bad i just tuck out my shirt too much and wear ankle socks that's all. nobody would ever guess that we're this close cos we're two totally opposite people rite? will always rembr that time you banged my head on the door cos i'll always peep throught ur classroom door then open to call you out to walk to malay class. then one day i was goign to open the door of your classroom and you open the door from inside and you happily banged my head on the door you knwo how painful it was?????? and yet you laughed how evil.

you were always there at my lowest point encouraging me too. when i kept saying i'll do badly for exams you were always there to assure me. you're my challenge in ego. haah... rmbr you were there to listen to me pour my woes to you something somethign i was so confused about and you were there for me when i was happy. you were always happy for me. and im always happy for you. you made me so proud you know. knowing my dear yashira scored a 6pointer for prelims. ahhh you made me so proud of you. i'll always rmbr our clarke quay date where we just sat there by the river chatting our time away eating famous amos cookies... we'll have our clarke quay date soon ok? always rmebr the little things and the little memroies with you. you have become such a treasured part of me. i'll never be able to find another yashira you know. and you're going rj and i'll keep your promise about you goign to parkway with me hahah so near vj. okok i love you yashira laods. and you better love me too.

crying already? sigh.

shamphoo let go on 04:01