I'll never light your eyes up like they should

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sigh just had a tiff with brother. sometimes i just feel like killing him. but i don't wish to but i just feel like. i dunno what the hell is wrong with him. our love-hate relationship is horrible yes. that is i love him but he hates me. haha. funny yes. like i care. ok maybe i do.

i dunno wat to do with him. sometimes i feel like telling him that he has to grow up and he has to be sensitive to how others feel but then again i think ive told him that a million gazillion times. i mean like hello im sitting for prelims now cant u just help me out around with the housework though it isnt much but still ... i know he doesnt give a damn if i fail or whatever. but haiyah. i dunno wat to say. mummy told him alot of times too but he cant be bothered. hates it when he's rude when he thinks everyone has to serve him. he just gets the whole world into trouble. i feel like killing him.

i find that day by day i think he;s getting worse. i dunno what kind of frens he's mixing arnd with but i think i don't like them very much. though i hafnt met them. just got this realli weird feeling. he listens to his frens too much. and all he does at home is play the computer,watch tv and slack. worried for him. never haf i seen him study or even do hw for that matter. nobody really scolds him cos his the quiet sort. and everyone sides him most of the time instead of me. so i cant say much. but i dunno lah. rmbr the time he told me he hated me .so from that day one i didnt say anything abt wat he did and all until today it's getting too intolerant.

sigh i wish my brother would change a bit. i mean i never hated him . just dislike his attitude. i want him to be more responsible and more importantly be more sensitive to how others feel and how he affects others. i love him yes. but well he doesnt regard me as his sister i guess so nuthing much i can do rite? i've got a brother who's not like a brother at all. realli dunno what to do. siblings are there to turn to rite sometimes . and talk to and stuff. well i guess ours is the total opposite. more like strangers.

thank God i've got friends. shall not rant about my brother anymore.

shamphoo let go on 04:32